I know I have a backlog of photos that I promised I'd upload. I assure everyone, u WILL see them in the near future.

However, for now, I just don't feel like doing that.

Maybe it's PMS or something. Sigh.

I see happy people all around me. Happy people with smiley faces that makes me fuming mad and gives me that sudden irrepressible urge to want to break something. These people are happy cos they have someone. Whereas I have no one.

It's not that I'm unhappy per se. I am happy. (Well, not very, because my hair sucks, thanks to the bloody hairdresser who chopped my hair into a tangled, unrecognisable bush, and cos I'm growing fatter and fatter day by day, and my appetite is also increasing.) But it would be so very nice to have someone there that I can talk to. (Mei, if u're reading this, u're a someone, but sorry, in this case, u don't count. I'm sure u understand.)

Everyone who's attached or in love or infatuated with someone now tells me why do I want to put myself through the torture of feeling the pain and heartache. It takes all my energy and willpower to nod and smile, and not bonk them on the head (cue daydream of me dressed in prehistoric clothes (aka The Flintstones), holding a spiked club, and thumping the other fella into the dust.). It's like they're snidely telling u, "HAHA, I HAVE SOMEONE BUT U DON'T!", but it's obviously not very nice to say that, so they just say in that irritating, all-knowing tone, "It's alright. U know, relationships aren't all about fun, u know. U have all the fighting and jealousy and crap, u know.".

BLOODY HELL! I KNOW THAT. Not like I'm a complete idiot.

But u see, I WANT ALL THAT. I'm not deluded enough to think that a relationship is sugar and spice and everything nice. There's bound to be some rough waters to sail through. I KNOW THAT, THANK U VERY MUCH. But despite that, I STILL BLOODY WANT IT.

ARGH. I'm in one of my moods. Fuck it. I'm going to do some work now. Ta.