Revision sucks.

I HATE STUDYING.

Especially in a hall full of people who are busy spending the warm sunny spring/summer days playing frisbee/dipping their feet in the lake/cycling in the park/sunbathing next to the lake/playing their blasted music on full volume etc.

ARGH!!!

I hate studying when the weather's so gorgeous. Bloody hell!

Anyways, Newark formal tomorrow. I figured I'd go for it, cos otherwise I'd just be eating some crappy dinner (aka overcooked pasta with orangey cheese) alone in my own room. The added benefit of dressing up makes it all the more fun! Haha!

Ok, I better get back to work. Sigh. TONS to do.

Well, I'm back in my tiny mousehole of a room in Nottingham.

13 hours in a metal structure hovering 25,000 feet over nothing, followed by 3 hours on a noisy, stuffy coach is TORTURE.

Anyways, it's back to school. Didn't manage to get much studying done today. Sigh. Only did abit. Must buck up! Plus, I'm moping around cos I MISS HOME ALOT. It's not a crime. I MISS HOME. I MISS EVERYONE BACK HOME. Sigh.

I've put in a new song in the player on the sidebar. It's called The Candy Man by Sammy Davis Jr. Great upbeat oldies song. Haha! I heard it on one episode of Gilmore Girls and I just fell in love with it. LOL. Listen to it, it's very cute.

Just a few quotes from Episode 1 of Season 4 of Gilmore Girls that are VERY applicable to me right now.

"Listen, since we slept on the plane, we should go to sleep now but get up really early tomorrow. We don't wanna blow this whole week being jetlagged. We need to establish normal sleeping patterns."

"God, Mr. Jet-Lag wants to be my best friend."

"Ok, my jetlag and your love life is making me dizzy." (Haha, this one is especially funny and very true. If u're reading this, u know this applies to u. U know who u are! Haha!)

Ok, I'm gonna go finish up my tutorial now. Tata!

In a blink of an eye, it's back to college for me again.

SIGH.

So tiresome, having to pack up again and leave. Really wish I didn't have to go back again.

Add the whole Virginia Tech shooting incident to my worries, and there u have it, the worse headache in the world.

Plus I haven't exactly done much perfect studying during the holidays, so I have to bloody focus on my revision once I'm back in Nottingham.

But on the other hand, it'll only be 2 more months and then it'll be back home again. Yay!

My family's so nice to me that I feel so sad to have to leave. My aunt held a steamboat dinner specially for me before I went back. Man, I was so stuffed! And my dear brother had this little dangly toy thing on his cellphone, and I mentioned that I really liked it. And when I left my room for awhile, I came back and when I opened my little carry-on pouch, I found the cute little toy inside. Made me feel so warm and fuzzy inside. Made me kinda weepy too. Sigh.

Ok, better go now. Gotta finish my darned packing. Gonna go keep my mom company as she's watching her silly Korean drama. :)

See u guys back in Nottingham!

I love The Gilmore Girls.

Especially the very yummy Jared Padalecki, who plays Rory's boyfriend Dean Forester in the first 3 seasons, and the also equally delectable, but decidedly more hot Milo Ventimiglia, who plays the emo, loner who goes from girl to girl, until he meets Rory and wins her heart, causing her to break up with Dean.

Man, oh, man, am I hooked on this show.

I wish my life could be like Rory's. She's smart, goes to Yale, has guys falling head over heels in love with her, AND her mom Lorelai, played by Lauren Graham is so cool. But of course, Rory, played by Alexis Bledel, is so pretty and clever. Therefore, no one else can be like her.

Ok, back to work for me.

Gifts and Curses is a fantastic song. Gives me the chills when I hear it. It's the only song I've been listening to the past 2 days.

I think it's such a romantic song. Well, partly cos Spiderman is my favourite superhero and because Tobey Maguire makes a fabulous Spiderman.

But mostly, it's cos the lyrics are so damn amazing. Especially the chorus.

It's like the ultimate sacrifice. U love someone so much with all ur heart and soul, that any pain u suffer is all worth it. And I suppose this song was written specially for the Spiderman 2 soundtrack, cos the lyrics are so fitting. And the line, "And my worst pains are words I cannot say.", it's like the internal torture tearing a person up inside when they love someone, but can't say it to that person because that other person's in love with someone else, or because if they admit they love that person, they would get shot down.

To me, that's the worse kind of pain. Worse than the physical kind. Especially when the love isn't reciprocated.

Sigh. I'm in one of my moody, broody rubbish moods again. Urgh.

Why?! Why me?!

I've been listening to these 2 songs on the loop repeatedly, cos they're so very very beautiful. First is Yellowcard's Gifts and Curses, from the Spiderman 2 soundtrack (The Spiderman soundtracks are always full of great songs.), and then Hedley's Trip (Thanks, Ed, for the song.). I'll try to put up those song thingies, but something's wrong with that website now, so just the lyrics will have to do for now. Think of them as poems. Being the hopeless romantic I am, it goes without saying that these lyrics made me feel bittersweet emotions whenever I hear the songs. Those of u who know the songs, sing along. Oh, joy! The players are up and running again! Lucky! :)

Tell me how beautiful these lyrics are. Yellowcard is cool. And the violin totally makes their songs sound even better and more unique.

Another great song. Sorry, I couldn't find the song player. Pity. :(

Songwriters are so talented. They know exactly how to express their feelings in a few simple words, and pair them with melodious chords, and boom, another fabulous hit. It's so sad that so many great bands (mostly American. Can't really name any. The only one that comes to mind right now is The Perishers. I only knew of them when I watched One Tree Hill.) are so overshadowed by the likes of Akon, 50 Cent et cetera, thanks to the teenybopper fanatics out there who worship singers who aren't that talented to begin with. It's not that I don't like that kind of music. It's just that it irks me that really good music isn't played on the radio. I mean, look at Avril Lavigne. I used to think she was different from the other airheaded bimbos in the entertainment world. At least her songs and the image she portrayed was unique. But look at her latest single, Girlfriend.

'Nuff said.

I say bring out the great musicians and throw the teenyboppers out!

Of course that ain't gonna happen. Sigh. Mostly because most of the world is completely brainwashed. Power of media, huh?

I know I have a backlog of photos that I promised I'd upload. I assure everyone, u WILL see them in the near future.

However, for now, I just don't feel like doing that.

Maybe it's PMS or something. Sigh.

I see happy people all around me. Happy people with smiley faces that makes me fuming mad and gives me that sudden irrepressible urge to want to break something. These people are happy cos they have someone. Whereas I have no one.

It's not that I'm unhappy per se. I am happy. (Well, not very, because my hair sucks, thanks to the bloody hairdresser who chopped my hair into a tangled, unrecognisable bush, and cos I'm growing fatter and fatter day by day, and my appetite is also increasing.) But it would be so very nice to have someone there that I can talk to. (Mei, if u're reading this, u're a someone, but sorry, in this case, u don't count. I'm sure u understand.)

Everyone who's attached or in love or infatuated with someone now tells me why do I want to put myself through the torture of feeling the pain and heartache. It takes all my energy and willpower to nod and smile, and not bonk them on the head (cue daydream of me dressed in prehistoric clothes (aka The Flintstones), holding a spiked club, and thumping the other fella into the dust.). It's like they're snidely telling u, "HAHA, I HAVE SOMEONE BUT U DON'T!", but it's obviously not very nice to say that, so they just say in that irritating, all-knowing tone, "It's alright. U know, relationships aren't all about fun, u know. U have all the fighting and jealousy and crap, u know.".

BLOODY HELL! I KNOW THAT. Not like I'm a complete idiot.

But u see, I WANT ALL THAT. I'm not deluded enough to think that a relationship is sugar and spice and everything nice. There's bound to be some rough waters to sail through. I KNOW THAT, THANK U VERY MUCH. But despite that, I STILL BLOODY WANT IT.

ARGH. I'm in one of my moods. Fuck it. I'm going to do some work now. Ta.