I've ruined it.

Thanks to my incessant over-thinking of things, listening to people's advice, well-meaning as it is, not exactly the best route to take, and the usual verbal diarrhoea.

ARGH!

I've fucked things up just when they were going good.

FUCK.

Oh, perfect, perfect, perfect.

Today was just absolutely perfect.

Everything went smoothly. Nothing bad happened. Everything was just natural and I had a great time.

Sigh. I wish I could put into words everything I feel.

Yummy.

Finally! 1 more exam left. With a 5 day break in between. Yes, the well-deserved break is definitely in high demand.

Well, tomorrow. Just thinking about it makes my heart beat at an insane rate. I need nerves of steel. Sigh.

Pray to God there's good weather tomorrow. Pray to God nothing goes wrong. Pray to God my feelings are reciprocated.

Ok, I guess that's it for now. I'm so sorry for the lack of updates, and the incredibly crytic and short ones when there are updates. I promise as everything pans out, I'll reveal more.

Girly night of pampering in preparation will now begin.

3 exams down, 3 more to go.

QM1B is tomorrow. In a word, I'm basically screwed.

Yet with all these stress and pressure, I feel oddly happy and light-headed. It's like a perpetual high.

And I love this feeling.

Let's hope it lasts. Let's hope it's true. Let's hope that it'll grow.

This guy Subha just did a palm reading for me.

I'm not a HUGE believer in this kinda stuff, but what he said to me really freaked me out. There he was staring at all these wonky things on my hands and he was telling me stuff about my life and me.

Just to clarify, I didn't know Subha until I saw him doing a palm reading for my friend Ilhaam and I thought it'd be fun to do one too. So he has no idea who I am or what happened or happens in my life.

He told me alot of stuff, most good, some bad. But I don't wanna jinx it all by posting it up here.

The lucky few whom I tell shall be the only ones.

And that's gonna have to wait awhile. At least for 37 days.

I can't believe Gilmore Girls is gonna end with its seventh season. So sad. It's such a great show. Unbelievable that the network decided to drop it.

I just watched episode 20 of season 7. The scene where Lorelai gets up on stage and sings I Will Always Love You (the Dolly Parton version, although I prefer the Whitney Houston version.) to Rory for her graduation, and then Luke walks in, my God. My heart just broke there and then. And she'd just reached the part of the song where is says "Bittersweet memories/ That is all I'm taking with me/ So good-bye/ Please don't cry/ We both know I'm not what you need." Especially the part where she sings "And I will always love you" and kinda shrugs a little, it's like she's saying to Luke "That's all. Now you know.". And later she sings "I hope life treats you kind/ And I hope you have all you've dreamed of/ And I wish you joy and happiness/ But above all this I wish you love.", and Luke sort of jerks his head. Oh my God. The waterworks just came on and refused for stop for a good 20 minutes.

Watch it and tell me you don't feel tears well up in your eyes. Tell me you don't feel any emotion build up inside. It's so sad. After everything Luke and Lorelai have been through, you just feel for them.

Huh.

My revision's totally gone to hell.

So. I found 2 videos on Youtube that had the song I posted earlier.

The first one is an original clip from an episode of One Tree Hill. The song was the CODA of the show, and it has Lucas Scott's meaningful musings, so I thought it was appropriate to put it up.

The second one is the song with clips from the Gilmore Girls. Since I am totally in love with that show, and the never-ending drama and nail-biting suspense of Lorelai and Luke's relationship, I thought I'd put that up for Gilmore Girl fans out there.

This isn't for any particular person. I'm just in one of those moods today. So I'm just putting this out in the universe, to whoever's out there.

Wait for love.

OMG I WANNA KILL MY NEIGHBOUR!

My neighbour has been playing the same damn freakin' song over and over again the whole fucking day and I'm close to breaking point.

WHAT THE FUCK?!

It's like these people don't have exams or something! Don't they have to fucking revise their damn work?! At the very least, if they don't wanna study, at least keep their freakin' stereo down!

In a fucking bad mood now.