I'm going to London!

So this'll be my last post till Sunday night (or Monday.). Depending.

Yesterday was Newark's formal. Damn, everyone was dressed up to the nines, and we all had a great time. I'll post photos soon, as soon as I compile everything.

Well, I have to go now. Got lots to pack. So I'll see y'all on Sunday then! Ciao!

Just watched finish Stay Alive. Fucking creepy! Bloody hell! Go watch it. It's pretty crap, u know, ur typical teenage horror film. I mean, these kids are damn stupid! If I hear a scary noise in a deserted construction area, I get the hell outta there! I don't walk into the dark, dusty area! Watch it for the cheap thrill of being shocked at every turn.

Haven't done jack today. Sigh. I have 19 case briefs to prepare. Die already.

Listening to Mat Kearney's Won't Back Down now. Damn nice. (Would be, since it's from One Tree Hill. That show has the best songs always.) Thanks, Ed!

Well, I better get on to doing those case briefs! They ain't gonna write themselves!

Sigh.

What a long, boring, tiring day.

Bowling tonight with the English Society. Don't really feel like going no more, but I've got no other choice. Already reserved the tickets and I don't wanna back out of a promise. Plus, I've already asked my friend Eline to go, and she's agreed, so heck, gotta go.

Social politics are the worst of all. Really detest situations like this. And the people who are the cause of it. Remember R? Oh my god, I swear to God, if I could dump her on some other people, I'd do it in an instant. Man, that woman pisses me off!

R is in the English society, same as me. She basically joined the same societies as me, except for Chinese Society, which I didn't join. So she told me that she wanted to go for this social tonight for bowling. So I reserved the tickets with the girl in charge since they were selling them on Univeristy Park campus and I couldn't make it there to get them. And now the little bitch wants to back out of it! I mean, that's gonna make me look like I'M the one who's breaking a promise! What the fuck?! Then she tries to shift the blame onto me! She went, "Oh, I only said I was going cos u're going alone." Bloody hell! And I had specifically told her on Monday that Eline was going too!

Stupid bitch! Think she can outwit me?! Not in a million years!

Plus, her lameass excuse was, "I have a ton of work to do." WHAT THE FUCK?! And I don't?!

The difference between her and me is that I DO MY WORK BEFOREHAND! What did she think I was doing, slogging away all those late nights?! Playing?! Then she bloody hell deserves it! She goes out with her boyfriend all weekend (which I still can't believe how THAT happened), and then expects sympathy that her work isn't done? Another excuse is that her English ain't good. Well, then LEARN! Oh my god, sure u're not a native speaker, but still! People from her country speak so much better English than her!

Un-fucking-believable.

Sigh. And I'm spent. Think I'll go grab 40 winks before dinner.

It's 2.45am in the morning now, so this has got to be fast.

I love Wednesdays! The only day in the week that I can rest after 2 hectic days. Mondays always crawl by ever so slowly after a restful weekend, and Tuesdays are for the recovery. But enough of that. I'm sure u'd rather hear about my day. (Yeah, right.)

Went shopping with Sophy today after lunch. I bought my heels for my formal and SingNight! Yay! Only about 6 pounds! What a deal! They're so pretty, and they look so nice with my dress! They're silver and they totally match my entire outfit!

Also, I dyed my hair! It's not that obvious, unless I'm under the sun or there's a lamp shining directly at my head. It's kinda reddish, even though the colour I bought is supposed to be light chestnut brown. Looks abit weird.

Busy days ahead. I hate my Fridays. It's one of my busiest days. Plus my friend wants to go for the Law tutorial on Fridays than on Tuesdays. That means that my Friday is absolutely packed and I've gotta rush from one class to another in the matter of 5 minutes. And campus ain't exactly pea-sized! I think I'll go for the Tuesday slot. Even if I have to go alone. Not that it really matters. The teacher's far better too.

Gonna go get contacts. Must set up an appointment for this Saturday. I think it's quite a good deal. It's 19 pounds for the eye check up, and 22 pounds for 30 pairs of daily disposable contact lenses. Plus, the shop's having a free trial thing until the end of the year, so they'll give free ones. I don't wear contacts that often, so I think daily ones are best for me.

Ok, it's 3am now. Must sleep! Tata!

It's finally over.

Sometimes I think, it's so much safer to keep to myself. U don't get hurt if u don't put urself out there. But then, I could never just lock myself up and stay quiet. It's not in my nature to be that way. I just have to voice out my opinion. That's one of my flaws, amongst others, of course.

Went for KPMG Live, which is like a career meet-and-greet thing. Asked a couple of questions. I'm kinda interested in a job with KPMG. Hmm. Well, it's too early for me to decide anything just as yet, but it's no harm thinking about it now.

Bloody hell. Damn tired. Gonna go shopping tomorrow. Need to get heels for Newark's formal and SingNight. Sigh. So freakin' busy. But can't wait!

Upcoming events in the next week or two:

1. Newark Formal (Thursday, 26th Oct 2006)

2. SingNight in London(Saturday, 28th Oct 2006)

3. MSS Halloween Party (Monday, 30th Oct 2006)

Oh man, what a schedule! But I do so love being busy, even though it's so fucking tiring. :)

Just a quick post. I have 23 case briefs to complete. I've done the math. An average of half an hour is required for each case. That means 12 hours, minimum. FUCK!

I'm so screwed.

I'm thinking 7pm to 2am makes 7 hours. That's 14 cases only. 4 cases more tomorrow after Quantitative Methods lecture at 9am and before lunch at 12pm. After that, 4 more cases before Economics tutorial at 2pm. OH MY GOD!!!

I have no life.

But my new boots make me feel so pretty. Hehe. :) (Oh my god, I sound so bimbotic. Ah, heck. I'm entitled to certain narcississtic moments in my life. Everyone does.)

This quote from One Tree Hill is really cool.

Ok, looks like I can't fulfil my promise of posting photos, since I haven't had time to Photoshop all of them, only about 4. Been really busy. I'm so tired.

Went shopping today with my dear Eline. Bought a LBD (or Little Black Dress) from Dorothy Perkins for Newark's formal on Thursday, 28 October. Haha! Such a bargain! Only 7 pounds! Plus I got 10% student discount, so I only paid a little more than 6 pounds!It's so pretty. So happy! Didn't manage to find strappy heels to go with the dress though. Bought a black clutch from Dorothy Perkins too. Photos next time. Haha!

Also bought a pair of knee-high suede boots from Primark. Only 15 pounds! So cheap! Well, they are gorgeous with jeans!

Then went to Tesco's to get some essentials before heading to Starbucks to buy myself and Ryan my usual Caramel Macchiato.

Eline and I missed dinner at the Atrium, so we ordered Thai food from the restaurant where Par (this really nice Thai girl who studies Medicine) works at. I ordered this noodle thing called Pad Thai. Not bad! So filling, though.

Then studied in Ryan's room until about 11pm. I'm thinking of running for Publicity Officer in MSS next year. It'd look good on my CV. Haha! It's a thought only, but it's worth considering. It'd be fun.

Well, I have more Law reading to do, so tata!

In a mess now.

I guess it's all over.

Does this happen to other people too? Or am I just particularly in tune to receiving this kind of stuff?

Sigh. Forget it. It's not worth getting all worked up about. Besides, she's my friend.

Just fade into a wall. Safer that way.

I'm watching Season 4 of One Tree Hill on Youtube now. Damn, it's pretty good. The conspiracies just keep on coming. But I'd say Season 1 to 3 are better. The music was definitely nicer.

My weekend's gonna be pretty darn busy. Gotta go shopping for a dress for formal plus a huge pile of work to do. Sigh.

Well, gonna go watch One Tree Hill now. Ciao!

Tired as hell. What a long day. It's freezing out there. Well, I've got roughly 80 more pages to cover by noon tomorrow. Oh my god, I'm gonna die.

I know I promised pictures, but I just got the Photoshop program from my friend, so I wanna make the pictures look nicer, so be patient and wait! I'll upload them this weekend, when I have time to take a breather. At least by Sunday.

Going down to London week after next for Singnite, which is some kind of dinner and dance for Singaporeans. Don't know what that is all about, but I'll just go. Might meet some new friends. Can meet up with my old friends too. Talk about killing 3 birds with one stone huh? Haha.



How do I start? I'm grateful we're friends. After that talk u and I had the other morning, it made alot of sense. U're real sweet, always taking the time to listen to others, even when ur schedule's packed like hell. U really listen, not just the "listening" that my girlfriends do. No, u really hear what people have to say, even though sometimes it ain't that important.

I feel something between u and me, but as I said before, it could be nothing because my intuition's rubbish. The way u look at me everytime u strum Faith Hill's Breathe on ur guitar and sing, it makes my heart beat faster. That morning when u sang strains of that beautiful love song, I thought I saw that something in ur eyes, that something I see each time u play this song. But like I said before, it could be nothing.

Doing absolute rubbish today. Got to get my head out of the clouds and my feet firmly back down to earth!

This has to be short because I just found out I have a ton of reading to do for Business Law. I AM SO DEAD.

Here are my assignments for this week (including this weekend):

1. Financial Accounting Week 2 Self-Study Questions

2. Ernst & Young essay (Due Friday 20th October '06)

3. Business Law Reading: Business Law, 7th Edition - Chapters 1-3, Pg 2-65, Chapter 7, Pg 241-294

4. Scholarship application

5. Financial Accounting Reading: Frank Wood - Chapter 1, Pg 1-8, Chapter 10

Oh my god. No more playing! No more Prison Break! (I must stress how difficult this is, since Michael Scofield, played by Wentworth Miller, is hot, hot, HOT!!!)

I need to be disciplined. Sigh.



No more games. Push me a little bit more and u'll get it from me. I swear to God, shut the fuck up about that. U don't wanna make me mad. A lot of people are already pissed at u. So just lay off.

Today was a bloody wonderful day. An exact repeat of what happened yesterday occurred all over again. Deja Vu. Only today, I was forced to witness all the flirting and be pushed into a corner, invisible and neglected. I'm sure no more needs to be said. In a really, really, REALLY rotten mood now.

School's starting in full force. I'm starting to feel a little of that panicky feeling u get when u suddenly remember u have work to do when u're having fun. Been on holiday for so long, I just don't feel like going back to work mode. Very bad. I did pack my room though. It looks less messy. That's an achievement. Heh.

Tomorrow's gonna be a busy day too. Bloody Quantitative Methods lecture at the god-awful time of 9am.

My throat's killing me too. Damn Strepsils don't seem to have any effect whatsoever. Everyone seems to be sick, though. The lecture theatre was ringing with the sounds of people coughing today. Hate to be sick. Coughing makes me feel weak.

Sigh. What exactly do I want? With one guy, there doesn't seem to be any interest from his side, but here I am pining after him, thinking even of changing my whole being. (See, he's a very devout Christian.) Yet with the other, I feel something when he looks at me (although it could very well be nothing, since I'm rubbish at this kinda thing. I don't trust my intuition anymore.), and I feel like I can be myself when I'm with him, but he's always surrounded by girls and other people.

Maybe I should just give up and turn lesbian. There's a thought. But then again, girls are too bitchy. So forget it.

Snow Patrol concert in November. Go? Dont' go? Hmm.

Oh, look, it's raining. The weather truly is mirrors my emotions.

I better go now. So many bloody things to do before I head to bed. Ugh.

I hate it when things turn out this way.

Girlfriends really aren't that great when this kinda thing happens. I'm eternally grateful for the girlfriends I have in my life, but seriously, when the guy I like seems more interested in my friend than me, I start to feel really annoyed. I mean, how'd u like it if u went to the guy's room to hang out because ur girlfriend persuaded u to, and she said she'd go in and just help to steer the conversation for us, and then she's the one who starts talking to him most of the time, about stuff that u have absolutely no clue about?! U'd feel like strangling her too, I tell u that! She says that she doesn't have any interest in him whatsoever, but who really knows right? Bloody hell. Maybe there really is nothing going on, maybe there is. It's all so ambiguous. I guess it's pretty obvious though. That's it then.

Can't stand it when this happens. One minute things were fine and dandy at brunch, next thing I knew, he was having a time of his life talking to that girl (who actually isn't really my friend in the first place. Friend of a friend, but since my friend was in Leicester for the weekend, she had no choice but to hang out with me. She's ok on her own. Actually not really, she kinda drives me nuts with her inane questions about relationships and which guy I'm interested in. It's especially when the guys are around, that's when I want her to get the hell away from me.) She's one of those girls, u know, too cool for school, the kind that has loads of girlfriends, and (god knows why!) has alot of guys who lust after her, and those who don't like her cos she's such a "cool" girl. Bah.

School tomorrow. Got a pretty full day tomorrow, lectures starting from 11am, breaking for lunch, and then 3pm to 5.30pm.

Halloween's coming soon. The Malaysian Singaporean Society (MSS) is organising a Halloween party at one of the clubs, perhaps Isis or Faces. So fun! I wanna volunteer for this.

Girls can be unbelievably bitchy sometimes. Seriously, at times, I wish I were a guy. Not so many freakin' problems to deal with. Can't stand it.

Just did some personality test I saw on my brother's blog. Just for laughs, here are my results. :)

Well! Maybe there still is hope.

Just returned from Ryan's room. Was hanging out with some of my friends after Ryan and I had out midnight supper of fried chicken. (Heaven, I tell u!) Man, I had so much fun! Haven't laughed so much in such a long time. Haha! Every topic under the sun, we managed to talk about it. You name it, we laughed about it. Great fun hanging out with the guys.

Went to the city with Janine today. Almost did splurge on a gorgeous red turtleneck at Zara, but managed to restrain myself. Then met up with Ryan and the others. Bought a vase of pretty fake orange daisies at Wilkinson, and then we headed back in time for dinner at 5.30pm. (Damn early, but my friends were hungry, so yeah.) Pepperoni pizza! Yum!

After dinner, packed my room. Now, it's not as messy as before! At least cleared one of my storage boxes. My desk still has a ton of crap on it, but I'm too tired to go deal with it right now, so I guess I'll just leave it. (There's a banana rotting away on my table. Better dump it tomorrow. LOL.) Then went up to Ryan's room to study. Didn't get much done, cos I was so tired. I did read a couple topics of Economics from my old notes, before I fell asleep around 8pm. Was nearly 9pm when I woke up, hearing Ryan teach Janine how to fight. (He practices Wing Chun, which is like a branch of Kung Fu.)

So, perhaps things are ok after all. Sure hope so! I've learnt something. Don't put too much heart and thought into these kinda things, otherwise you surely will be heartbroken and hurt in the process.

Ok, I'm off to bed now. Damn tired. Gonna take it slow tomorrow.

Well, we went to Isis after all! But it turned out to be quite disappointing. I mean, I had fun and all with Ryan and the others, but well, THAT didn't produce any satisfying results.

Weird thing is, I now have a teeny bit of feelings for another guy now. Sigh. Probably cos I was feeling down yesterday due to his insensitivity, and that other guy was so nice to me. Argh! Hate things to turn out this way.

I'll post pictures as soon as I get my camera back from Ryan's room. Left it there last night when we rushed out to fetch the 2 girls back to campus from some house warming party in Wollaton.

Nothing good will come out of this. I know that now. But, no regrets! Perhaps it just wasn't meant to be.

Might not have time or energy (or be conscious enough! Haha!) to blog later tonight, so here I am now!

Hope my friend agrees to go to Isis, the second largest club in Nottingham, after Oceana. He's going. Don't wanna miss this opportunity!

I got another of those nods. WHAT DO NODS MEAN? Recognition? Mere acknowledgement? Or interest?

Corrine Bailey Rae's vocals are superb. Her smoother-than-velvet tones are almost hypnotic. Everytime I hear her songs, I drift off into yet another one of my daydreams. One of which involves hanging out in a hip lounge club with my best friends, having cocktails in beautiful stylish clothes that only belong to me in dreams.

Sigh. I'm truly mad.

Had Business Law lecture today. It's a tough module, but seems rather interesting. My law professor is really strict and stern, but he's really quite good. He's an American, apparently a Harvard Law graduate. He was a trial lawyer for over 20 years before he went into teaching. He's kinda an ass, but I think he's really confident in the way he teaches. Hope I can cope well with this module. Heard he's kinda mean in tutorials. Oh well.

Well, gotta go now. Gonna go pick out clothes just in case my friend agrees to chaperone me to the club later. Ryan, don't let me down! Haha!

Just got back from the Goose Fair in the outskirts of Nottingham, Radford. So tired and cold.

This'll be short. I have class at 10am tomorrow morning and I still have to wash my hair.

Will post photos up soon, once consolidate all of them, including those my friends took.

Saw him today at dinner. I'm such a silly duck. One smile and I'm happy. All day, I'd been moping around, feeling played and stupid. But just that one smile, and my day brightened up, the dark, gloomy clouds disappeared immediately.

A nod, the raised eyebrows and that (absolutely gorgeous!) grin. What does it all mean?! ARGH!

Blog, blog, blog. I love blogging.

Right. Of course I'm bored. But I do love writing in my blog.

Unfortunately, that also shows everyone how intriguing and exciting my oh-so-busy life is. I want school to start properly. The first week is always just induction and getting to know the lectures and the modules. Next week will be slightly more busy.

I love A Teens' Heartbreak Lullaby. Makes me feel so sad.

I'm mad. I like to feel heartache. This is called self-torture. Sigh

Grow up, Cheryl! GROW UP!!!

I'm feeling that familiar ache in my heart again. It's almost a physical pain, which worsens with each sigh I heave.

Watching movies alone is when it becomes the worse, especially if they're sappy love stories. Just watched The Lakehouse, starring Sandra Bullock and Keanu Reeves (so hot!). The ending is so sweet, but so very anticlimax! But I did shed some tears at the particularly heartrending part where Kate (Sandra Bullock) is trying desperately to save Alex (Keanu Reeves) from dying by writing the note and placing it in the letterbox. The feeling was so overwhelming, I almost couldn't breathe. Somewhere in the middle of the story, as Alex was searching for Kate, I thought to myself, if your special someone had their arms around you as you watched the movie together, the feeling wouldn't be so crushing. To me, the feeling seems to intensify even more when u're alone.

Ok, fine. I'm such a girl. Whatever. Watch the movie and u'll see what I mean. Of course, it ain't just the movie. Ah, never mind.

Also borrowed Constantine from my friend and just watched it. Watching that right after a touching love story is like having a bat swung at your head. Man, the graphics are so horrendous! The storyline's pretty ok, a little crap. You know, your usual struggle between good and evil. But the special effects are awesome. Worth the watch.

Well, only got one lecture tomorrow at 3pm, so I'll have some free time in the morning. Gonna go to the Goose Fair tomorrow evening. It's some travelling fair/carnival, apparently the largest one in Europe. I'll take more photos, promise.

Sigh. Why am I feeling like this, so morose? Been in this mood the whole day already. What the hell. It's like something heavy is pressing down on my chest. I don't want people to ask questions and frankly speaking, I don't want them to know. So all day long, I've had a mask on to hide my true feelings.

Had a great night yesterday. The most perfect time ever.

Beginning of the day sucked, with a 2 hour lecture on Quantitative Methods, which is a fancy name for A Level Mathematics. Then we had a meeting for our first group project, for which there's a prize, so we desperately wanna win.

Went for the Malaysian Singapore Society's general meeting and met an Eurasian Singaporean girl, Aurora. Such a beautiful name, right? Really nice girl too. She's doing her PhD and lives in Long Eaton, which is a long way from the university. Well, then we had pizza for dinner in the Glasshouse Atrium after that.

Went back to Newark to get ready for clubbing after that at Faces, for the Asian Social Night. Left around 10.20pm to the club with Eline, Janine, Woody and Kian.

Remember the BBC I mentioned before? Well, saw him there and hung out, then headed for the dance floor together. We had no fancy moves and danced like rubbish, but it was so fun that I didn't care anyway. Sigh. U just had to be there to see it for yourself. Yesterday was the first time for a long time that I've felt that way. I think there really was some chemistry. But of course, as usual, he was blowing hot and cold, especially when we were leaving.

Left the club around 2am with him and his 2 friends back to campus. On reaching we were all starving, so we called delivery and ate a late supper at 3am whilst chatting. Only slept at 5am. Had to get up at 7am for the damn fire drill. I thought he was gonna ignore me, but he came over as we waited out in the freezing cold and chatted until we could go back to our rooms.

I'm a happy girl now. Well, not very happy, cos I don't know what to think, but oh well. If it's fated, then so be it. It's all in Fate's hands now.

First day's over. I can't believe how many assignments I already have! And it's only the first day!

Let's see now.

1. "The Most Effective Team" Induction Group Project (Due Friday 7th October)
2. Ernst & Young 750 word essay (Due Friday 20th October)
3. Computers in Business module Case Study "The 2010 ICT Showcase" group project (Due 5th-7th December)

Ugh. So much to do. I'm already tired just thinking about it.

Gonna go hit the shower and then crash. Got an early lecture at the ungodly hour of 9am. These timetable people are mental.

On a lighter note, I saw him today. Hee hee. (My god, I'm so secondary school again.)

Well, a new beginning calls for a new blog, yes?

It is for a more practical reason, of course. I'm not entirely mad to just change my blog all of a sudden. The old blog has too many posts, so it takes forever to upload.

So! Tomorrow's the official start of my brand new life as a university freshman! I'm there! Just 2 years ago, I remember sitting at my desk at home studying for the O Levels, daydreaming about what it would be in university, worrying about which JC I got into. And now, here I am! In Nottingham, no less!

Not bragging or anything, of course. I worked hard to get to where I am now. True, I flunked out of Meridian last year and did a much easier course to get here, but hell! It still took effort! And I must say that I'm not that unhappy that Fate threw me that curveball in my life.

Well, I will update u guys as faithfully as I can. Do motivate me as much as possible ok? I sure do need that!