I think this song just about says it all.

Nuff said.

Anyone's who's gone and seen Jay Chou's latest movie, Secret, or 不能说的秘密, you'll all agree it it a truly awesome movie. Perhaps a little more along the arthouse genre, but I think it's still a great film. Probably one of Jay Chou's best works.

I'm in love with the classical music in the movie, and of course the soundtrack, which is composed and sung by Jay Chou himself, who also incidentally wrote the story for the movie and directed it himself.

I'm posting the Chinese lyrics up here with the music video. For those who don't understand Chinese, I'll post up a translation at the end. :)

Beautiful lyrics. The translation is... well, the best there is out there already. But the Chinese words hold more meaning.

Here's the translation. It's almost funny.

As the cold coffee leaves the coaster
I desperately try to hold my emotions far behind
Fighting hard to restore the past
On my face you can still see ever so clearly

That rainy day wasn’t the most beautiful
It’s the shelters that I once shared with you in the rain
The pictures in my memory
While on the swings dreams become less sweet

You told me that by gradually letting go I’d be able to go further
And why bother changing the times that you’ve missed
You used your fingertip to stop me from saying goodbye
Imagining you by my side before you completely disappear

You told me that by gradually letting go I’d be able to go further
Perhaps life’s destiny only allowed us to meet
Only allowed us to love this one season of fall
Only after the pieces drifted down that I realized these are the pieces of happiness
How do I pick them up

See what I mean? The translation does the song no justice. It's only beautiful in Chinese. Haha.

Honestly, I don't know what on earth's going on. And I'm not gonna go think about it too much. There's too much energy involved as it is already. I'm learning to let the little things go.

I haven't spoken to him in over a week already. Ok, a couple texts here and there. But that's not enough. I don't know. I'm too tired. I've tried. It's his turn. If he cares, he'll call.

To Joyce: Haha. If u're reading this, guess what?! My tagboard says I'm wordy too! So I decided to write u in this entry! Wooh! So yeah, I've added u on Friendster. My MSN should be up there. :D Sorry, somehow couldn't click that link to your MSN on my tagboard. Stupidass thing. And yeah definitely we can meet up! Discuss this on MSN yeah? :)

Well, just over a week till my Eurotrip! Can't wait. 3 more work days and I'm free! :D Wow. Time flies. Seems like just yesterday that I just got back from UK. In about 4 weeks I'll be flying back. :)

I'm blogging from work. Thank God work's pretty quiet today. I just spoke to a really nasty client on the phone, and it took all of my energy to be polite to him, with my mood already as lousy as it is. Why, u may ask?

Why, because of something I saw at 12 noon today.

I know people say that girls think too much. But seriously, I don't see how I can "think too much" in this case.

I feel like my heart's gonna break, literally into two, with the cracking sound effect.

I don't think I'm a very jealous person. I'm extremely patient and very impartial. But I just don't see how I can be ok about this and smile like it's all perfectly normal. And I admit, I feel a slight tinge of jealousy. Do I sound insecure? Cos I don't think I am. If I were, I would be freaking out about every single girl in his photos.

I'm his girlfriend. I have acknowleged that fact since the day we became exclusive. He's said it a couple of times too, so in his mind I should have established at least some kind of priority. Ok, he has his friends. I do too. And I know it would be unfair to ask him not to hang out with his friends all the time, cos I know that if he asked that of me, I wouldn't like it either.

But that's where I draw the line. Especially GIRL friends. I'm totally fine with him having female friends. But to look so cosy together, it's just... just not fair to me. Would he like it if he saw a photo of me and a guy friend being all cosy together? I think not. I don't care how platonic the relationship is. Bottom line is, he's gotta consider my feelings as well.

I know I must sound so demanding. Do I actually? I don't know. I think I'm being extremely magnanimous. I don't know how to breach this subject with him. How do I even talk to him about this? Right now, this doesn't seem like something we should discuss online.

Sigh. Sometimes when I think about it, all the hugs and kisses and compliments just don't justify these worries and headaches of our relationship. But I'm not giving up. This is the first relationship that's progressed more in 3 weeks than any of my past relationships, and has lasted far longer than I ever expected it to (and of course, lasted longer than the last 2 "boyfriends" I had). I guess it's hard because we're away from each other. Hopefully this all irons out when I'm back. Or rather, I hope we can last the remaining 5 weeks.

1 more week of work. 2 weeks till Eurotrip (it's been shifted to 3rd September now). Can't freakin' wait. 2 whole stress-free weeks in Europe. 1 week when I return before I fly back to UK. Sigh. Wish time would speed up.

I think sometimes when you overthink things, they tend to come true.

So here it is. I'm gonna stop all that nonsense. I'm just gonna let my guard down and trust him with my heart.

He wants to take me away for a weekend when I'm back, and he absolutely refuses to tell me what he's planned. Not even where we're gonna go. Just keeps saying that we'll talk when I get back. Intrigue. I like. :)

Having a small booze party with the girls soon. Hope everyone can hold their liquor, not like last time! ;)

2 more weeks of work. Can't wait to get it all over and done with! Sigh. Then I'll be free to do my own stuff. Eurotrip's in 3 weeks! WOOHOO! He said he might come meet me in Paris, but I don't have high hopes for that, since he's got a charity run the very next day, but we'll see how it goes. Plus my parents would be there, so I can't actually run off with him for an entire day.

But just imagine. Paris. The city of romance. How wonderful would that be? :)

But even if it isn't Paris, I wouldn't care. As long as I'm with him, I'm happy. We could be holed up in an absolute dump for a whole week and I wouldn't complain.

This isn't to say, of course, that I'm entirely jealous-free. His 80's theme party is tonight. Meaning girls dressed in sexy cocktail dresses and all made up. But I shall stick to my new motto, and not overthink things, and just trust him to stay true to me.

I feel so down. It feels like we're drifting apart. I try not to think that, because I don't want it to be true. I know we're both busy with work, and he has his social life and I have mine, and the bloody time difference is a bitch to deal with. But it's a little unsettling.

I mean, I miss him. I honestly do. He's on my mind even when I'm busy dealing with crap all day. But how much does he miss me? I honestly don't know.

3 more weeks and I'll be off to Europe for 11 days. That's 11 days without internet (well, hopefully there will be some internet cafes or something). That means 11 days of no communication. Ok, maybe there'll be a few texts here and there, but even those are sparse now, when there used to be at least one every day.

I know I sound like I'm just being a whiny brat, wanting attention from my boyfriend. But I don't think it's too much to ask for at least a little acknowledgement that I'm on his mind.

Internship's ending soon. Can't wait. Only 2 more weeks.

41 days. Seems like an eternity.