In the blink of an eye, it's February again.

I remember what I was doing around this time last year. Time seems to pass so quickly. Sigh.

In 15 days, I'll be 19. Another year older. I feel torn. On the one hand, I wanna grow older, cos that means freedom, being treated like an adult and fulfilling my dreams. But on the other hand, I wanna stay young always, cos that means I don't have to worry about jobs and money and everything that worries u when u're an adult. How contradictory.

But then, 48 more days till sunny Singapore! I know everyone thinks I'm crazy that I keep count, but seriously, unless u've experienced living away from home in a God-awful cold, dreary, rainy country and u don't get to see or hear from ur family and friends on a daily basis, keep ur comments to urself.

I'm writing rubbish again.

Sometimes I feel I might as well be invisible. Ah, I'm not gonna complain about that already. Too damn tired. Thank God it's Friday, right?

Sigh. I've lost the mood to blog anymore.



I'm not gonna let u ruin things for me all over again. Not the confidence and esteem I've worked so hard to build up and maintain all this time. NO WAY.