Today was a bloody wonderful day. An exact repeat of what happened yesterday occurred all over again. Deja Vu. Only today, I was forced to witness all the flirting and be pushed into a corner, invisible and neglected. I'm sure no more needs to be said. In a really, really, REALLY rotten mood now.

School's starting in full force. I'm starting to feel a little of that panicky feeling u get when u suddenly remember u have work to do when u're having fun. Been on holiday for so long, I just don't feel like going back to work mode. Very bad. I did pack my room though. It looks less messy. That's an achievement. Heh.

Tomorrow's gonna be a busy day too. Bloody Quantitative Methods lecture at the god-awful time of 9am.

My throat's killing me too. Damn Strepsils don't seem to have any effect whatsoever. Everyone seems to be sick, though. The lecture theatre was ringing with the sounds of people coughing today. Hate to be sick. Coughing makes me feel weak.

Sigh. What exactly do I want? With one guy, there doesn't seem to be any interest from his side, but here I am pining after him, thinking even of changing my whole being. (See, he's a very devout Christian.) Yet with the other, I feel something when he looks at me (although it could very well be nothing, since I'm rubbish at this kinda thing. I don't trust my intuition anymore.), and I feel like I can be myself when I'm with him, but he's always surrounded by girls and other people.

Maybe I should just give up and turn lesbian. There's a thought. But then again, girls are too bitchy. So forget it.

Snow Patrol concert in November. Go? Dont' go? Hmm.

Oh, look, it's raining. The weather truly is mirrors my emotions.

I better go now. So many bloody things to do before I head to bed. Ugh.